Some of you may have noticed that it has been fairly quiet over here on this blog over the past couple of weeks. This is mainly because I made the perhaps questionable decision to participate in Nation Novel Writing Month, or NaNoWriMo, this year after not participating in it for eight years.
To be honest, it’s a decision that I’m still questioning even now.
At one point in my life, I wanted to be a writer. I devoured a lot of books in my youth (sadly not something I have a great deal of time for now) and was always coming up with stories or adventures for games of pretend. I dreamed of putting those stories on pages for other people to read. I think a lot of us who grew up voracious readers may have had similar thoughts. I might have even thought it was easy.
However, as I believe many an author may tell you, writing a book is not exactly easy.
This is a lesson I’m rediscovering every day as I work more and more on my NaNo project. And I will be honest with you all. The novel I’m working on for this project is… not my best work whatsoever. I genuinely don’t know if I’d even consider sharing this draft with anyone or if this is a project I’d want to see the light of day.
So why am I even doing this if I’m not planning on sharing it with people?
Outside of roleplaying posts exchanged with friends, I haven’t sat down and let myself write a work of fiction since 2013. It’s been eight years since I’ve let myself just write anything for myself.
And to be quite honest with you all, I miss doing it.
I may not remember what my voice as a writer is like. I may not remember what I used to really enjoy writing. But the act of putting words on the page again and creating a fictional world is making me very happy.
Participating in NaNoWriMo this year is a way for me to try to reconnect with that and get myself writing again after a long time of just not doing it at all.
Will I continue to try to write more fiction after this? Who knows?
But if I do, I’m certainly going to go into it with more planning than I went into this NaNoWriMo novel.