Y’all, it happened. It finally happened.
The end of Blaugust is almost in sight and motivation is starting to deteriorate. I wasn’t sure that I’d ever actually get to this point, especially considering how well I had been doing for the first couple of weeks, but it doesn’t really feel like a good sign when even the idea of just sitting down and starting to write a blog post for the day makes you feel like you’d rather be doing almost anything else.
Part of me wonders how much of that is because I’m still relatively new at this whole blogging thing and how much of it is honestly because I’m not used to just going this hard all at once with blogging in general. Tackling a blog post every day for an entire month might have been a bit… ambitious as a return to blogging event, even though I’m somehow still determined to stick with it. I started this, after all, and I really want to finish it.
Part of me also wonders if part of my flagging motivation is the result of having to keep up with other forms of content generation. I’ve even been spending a lot of time over the past few days attempting to implement measures to make my Twitch channel safe from a variety of hate that has the potential to be spewed in chat (including going through an almost comically large list of accounts to outright ban). I’m not going to talk about those hate raids too much here, especially since I don’t regret the work I’m putting in right now, but that combined with everything else makes just sitting here to write up a short blog post feel like a lot.
Not to mention that I’m realizing even as I type this that trying to blog like this every day is just not sustainable for me in the long run, but I’m not entirely sure what is yet. Or how to figure that out.
Fortunately, this week is Staying Motivated Week for Blaugust, and I do have a few ideas for that, but they’re probably not going to be easy to write! We’ll have to see, I suppose!